One woman's journey to "find herself" after years of being lost.
Things I must do to complete the journey
My career...(Do somthing I love, not for Min. wage)
My Depression...(Forgiveness & Finding Joy)
My Spirituality...(learn to talk to God again)
My Lonliness...(Get yourself out there!!)
My Passion...(Enhance things I enjoy)
My Body...(make-up, clothes, hair)
My talents...(music, writing)
My health...(exercise)
My weight...(diet)
Thursday, February 4, 2010
The Hills
I have up days and down days. When I started this blog I had 2 up days in a row, now there are 2 down days, including today. I feel like giving up and just forgetting this whole thing now, what's the point?
"...if you work hard, and you're kind, amazing things will happen, I'm telling you, amazing things will happen, it's just true!!..." --Conan O'Brien 1-22-10
What is this blog about?
I have been hurt. I have been depressed. I have gone down to depths in my life so deep that I didn't ever think I could get back up. People are amazed that I am still standing on my own 2 feet. But, although I am alive...I am not living. I am dead inside.
What does this life all mean? What am I here for? Have I wasted the first 28 years of my existence? Have I accomplished nothing?
Until Conan O'brien's speech last Friday night, I was confused as to if I should have ever existed in the first place. But, he was beaten, he was down. And, he stayed strong for the people around him, and they loved him for that.
I need to focus on areas in my life to improve them, and I need to start doing things that I love so that I can enjoy this mortal existence for a few more years. I need to help myself so that I can help others. And, I need to find and use my talents to bring joy into other people's lives in order to complete the circle.
By doing this, I will have fulfilled the reason I am here. Please cheer me on along the way COCOnuts and fellow bloggers. Let the journey begin!!
I have you bookmarked. I understand what you are going through. You are giving me hope and strength. Please dont give up
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