YAY!!

Feeling FANTASTIC today! Went to work from 8-12, then someone from work said they had seen my video on FB and wanted to know if I needed any help, so doing some final shots with her this evening before I post videos #3 and #4 tomorrow.....aren't you all just SO EXCITED??

--Harms

Ugh....

Woke up at 3:00am with a toothache, but decided to still continue my routine through the pain. However, as I was getting dressed and eating breakfast, I threw up 3x. Good thing I had the day off. Maybe tomorrow will be better...

--Harms

P.S. Stay tuned for the next 2 vids this weekend!

Wet Day....

But no rain is going to deter me! (Although, the fat burner made me quite nauseous today..........)

Thankyou Coco...

Just so you guys know, ever since I decided to REALLY put Conan's words to the test and try to better my life, I have started losing weight, been happier, met more people.....and I got a job! I'm even registering to go back to school! And now I work part-time at "Eddie Bauer"!

THANKYOU CONAN O'BRIEN!!!

--Harmony

My first week working out...

My first week was sooooooo difficult.....I was sore every night and, (as you can plainly see), my exercise routine kinda sucked. Yes, I'm fat. Yes I'm out of shape. Feel free to laugh at my antics, but at least I'm trying....right now I'm in my 3rd week and things are going alot better, stay tuned for the next video.....and PLEASE COMMENT!!!

--Harms

My Life--Part One

The first video in my series of obtaining my weight loss and career goals....sorry it took so long to make....stay tuned!

--Harms

Diet (& Exercise) Week 2--(4-24-10)

My Numbers:

Stomach 44 1/2"
Hips 49 3/8"
Upper Arm 17 7/8"
Forearm 12 3/8"
Wrist 6 7/8"
Neck 14 5/8"
Thigh 28 1/4"

Weight 224

BMI = 37.3

My Test Scores:

2-Minute Push-ups......37.....(84%)(pass)

2-Minute Sit-ups........23......(36%)(fail)
2-Mile Run............19:53.....(65%)(pass)

Diet (& Exercise) Week 1--(4-17-10)

Here is the website where I learned about the testing coming up in July:

http://egov.oregon.gov/OSP/RECRUIT/trooper_testing.shtml

And here are the PT testing requirements:

http://usmilitary.about.com/od/army/l/blfitfem27to31.htm

And here are my numbers:

Stomach 47 1/2 "
Hips 50 3/8 "
Upper Arm 19 1/4"
Forearm 13 1/2 "
Wrist 7 1/2 "
Neck 15 1/4"
Thigh 31 1/8"

Weight 233

BMI = 40

Test: (You need a 60% to pass)

2-Minute Push-ups......21.....(61%)(pass)

2-Minute Sit-ups.........7......(21%)(fail)
2-Mile Run........21:30......(51%)(fail)

That's it....

OK guys....those who are still here....

In the past 2 1/2 months I have been up and down and up and down with my emotions and my motivation for turning my life around.

I tried to tackle too many things at once, sharing the stories about my kids, my brother and my daily pathetic life here.

I haven't worked in over 9 weeks, and have just laid around the house and gotten fatter and lazier and more depressed.

Things are going to just keep cycling through day after day for years on end unless I do something about it.

I am not seeing a psychologist for my depression, I am not on anti-depressants, I have no family supporting me and no friends to talk to.

I know that I can't just "get over it".....but I need to at least make the first steps towards recovery instead of just wallowing in my misery.

My parents have upset me about a few things lately......but I am just going to focus on me for awhile.

A couple of weeks ago I saw a website saying that the next testing for the Oregon State Police, (Highway Patrol), was coming up in July.

It is a 2-day test, with half of the applicants dropping out after the first day because of the Physical Fitness test.....the same test that I had to take for every month that I was in the military.

I can do this guys....maybe that's what I am supposed to do with my life. I want to help others, and I want my life to have meaning....

I am sorry that I have been leaving angry and depressing posts on here. Especially if some of you guys started following me to give me support, or wanted me to support you. I don't know who all reads this, but I just read through every comment and would like to say thankyou from the bottom of my heart for giving me something that my mother never has....hope. Faith. Believing in someone.

Thankyou.

Now let's do this thing!

--Harmony

P.S. I will be posting on a daily business....and posting videos weekly.

My parents killed my brother.....

.........and now they're killing me...............